June 19, 2006

entry for june 19, 2006 jun 18, '06 11:47 pm for everyone There is a darkness in me, that's almost overwhelming sometimes. The GRIEF!!! I know it's easier than it was at first, I thought it might consume me back then, now I know it won't, but sometimes it comes over me like a wave coming in at high tide. Thank God it comes in waves, if it just hit me and stayed, I don't think I could take it for long, and I've a strong psyche. Also, thank God for my friends! They've surely gotten more than an earful of my moping sometimes. I got one of them crying so hard, missing Laurie, she had to hang up, and didn't talk with me for three weeks. To that special friend, "Thank you for listening". You all are special friends to me, you know. You are what keep me on an even keel. Truthfully, along with the darkness, there's an incredible light. The pure joy of being. And being aware of how temporary this life is, and how precious everyone of us is, not to mention how precious is every breath we take. Along with the darkness, there are times when I feel like dancing for the pure joy of life! I'm reminded of the psalm, "Make a joyful noise unto the lord." He is so sweet to us, and we miss it so often. I grieve over losing my Laurie, but He gives me love again, and the ability to love again, and so goes Healing! The picture above, is of Laurie and I at my Dad's funeral, all unaware that within such a short time, Tara and I would be at one for my dear Laurie. People, don't ever take life, or those living around you for granted. Not even the stranger who cut you off! We are all God's children, and there's no way to know when one of us may be called Home. Be loving, Be loved.©F.Pierce *Note* The picture referred to was lost when Yahoo 360 went offline.