June 26, 2006

entry for june 26, 2006 jun 26, '06 11:49 pm for everyone Tara's over ten months old now, and I want to let her know how I feel about her Mom, and our life together, but I want her future to be hers, not a constant reminder. I want her birthday to be about her, she desrves that, and Laurie wouldn't want to take our daughter's special day away from her. I still have mixed feelings about the day she was born, it was the worst day of my life so far, the best too. But, and this is a BIG but, it was the day my little baby was born, and I wouldn't trade her, or the joy she's brought me for anything. So, I want to shift the focus of that day from the pain, to the joy. It was a painful day, but the anniversaries should be happy days to mark the times of the life her mom gave her. We should consiously give her the best birthdays we can, to celebrate her life, and the gift Laurie gave us all. So let's make August 23 a special day in our family. I think I'm going to start shifting the focus of this blog too. I'll still write occasionally about my feelings concerning Laurie, and my loss, but more about the things that are happening now, and the feelings/thoughts they inspire in me. ©F.Pierce